this is what happens when you start talking to your dog...

I should point out that the reasons I was talking to my dog a) no one else was home. b) you really need to talk some stuff out after you think about it like crazy for a long time. c) having someone/thing to talk to with rather expressive ears in quite amusing.

I've been thinking a lot about jealousy. Mainly in connection to the saying, "insults are the words of the jealous." Sometimes I find it hard to believe that. And though its not that insults stick with me long, or majorly rip me up, but that they do hurt some people, and I need to be aware of what I'm saying. I don't believe myself to be truly jealous of anyone at this time, but that's not a promise to me that I won't become wrapped up in what someone else has, or even is, sometime. And subsequently fall into the trap of insults.

Sparky: "Woof (x40,000)"
Me: "Sparky don't be jealous of that dog." (thoughts) why did I say jealous? where did that come from? would one dog sitting in the sun at a window be jealous of another bounding through the snow, tongue lolling..?
Perhaps the descriptions seems little overkill, but brain processes are pretty wicked fast, and that's what I caught.

You can sew up the rip, but you'll still see the tear...

I sewed up a rip in my jeans this morning. I thought I did pretty well. Until I bent my knee and the whole thing went different ways. I guess I'll be sewing them up again pretty soon, but it reminded me of jealousy again. Maybe I'm stuck on it, plainly put, obsessing over jealousy. But I'd rather be uber cautious than careless. Anyway, the rip. Its sort of like a situation of jealousy. Lets be crazy and use an interesting analogy. hmm. OK so Maria has a hairbrush a want. And that's the 'rip'. Then I get a hairbrush like it, that's the 'sew up job'. Then she gets a comb to go with it, and that's how it 'rips' again. Of course, that's a strange analogy considering that most like their own hairbrush, if they even use one, cause its not like I make a daily habit of it. But that's besides the point. And if you get the point, congratulations. You must be a genius, cause this is super muddled.

In a brief of what I'm trying to say is that jealousy can be there without you knowing it. You can be hurting others through the reaction to your emotions. Insults aren't the only sticky spot out there. Jealousy can be dealt with, but without being guarded towards it you're not guaranteed to not start up again.

And yes, I talk to my dog. :)