backwards

sometimes I feel like I have my brain was installed backwards

then I realized that God doesn't make broken things

where we are, what we do, what happens

those are the things that break us

sometimes I think that if I let it all fall

then I will fall, I will fail

then I turn around and let it all fall

and it works out better that way

the crumbling pieces that I gather in my hands

and try to put together

when I let them fall, they fall to larger hands

to loving creator, who pieces them together

makes me look like new again

and all the haunts are just whispers now

every crack, all the emotion, all it's lessons

are stored in this restored mind

if only I could cling to this sanity

that should come so naturally

instead, I turn from the perfect and try to find the pieces

I want to remake me, myself

trying, so hard

to do, what I know

is useless, for

what I do, is all ready done

society

It has come to my recent attention that for all our technological advances, the society in which we live is deteriorating. If not by visual, or physical make up, by social, and emotional measures. A particular focus that I discussed with one of my friends was that of emotional, and therefore relational and moral deterioration.

Yes, I obviously knew the world wasn't perfect. But so long as I made the small, and regular adjustments to the change, I didn't take note. It "wasn't important". All things are important in their own right. Though things that are out of our hands are not personally pivotal, we are wise to consider and attempt to understand them.

The chain reaction of emotion, to relational deterioration is highlighted in population. Our emotional needs are not cared for because of the lack of respect in our society. Our current Canadian population is falling due to lack of families. Lack of possible child-bearing relationships? No. These relationships are ones that lack consistency. These are not marriages. They are one-night stands, (quote: "gone wrong"), turned to abortions, and more emotional agony. These only lead to more pain, and more quick fixes. Easily working through the nation of already broken families, and smashing hope at every turn.

Somehow, even when this painful chain is realized by individuals, their attempt to accomplish success in this "technologically advanced" society, causes more pain. Even when a mate is found, and a marriage relationship achieved, both are socially pushed to attain education and a good job. Jobs which take the time that would be used to form and care for a healthy family. Jobs whose only function is to stash away money, and buy large flashy things. Visual assets to show their impressive social status. Things, that mean nothing. Families, that break for lack of care. This is the nation that we live in.

True, north, strong and free.

Yes.

Free to lack respect? I hope not.

Why not the simplicity of one-income households? The realization that relationships hold far greater value than things of this world? That relationships that last are far less painful, and you find yourself loved, through loving another. Resting in the knowledge that you have mutual love.

Why not?

I remember life before you.

and it was terrible.

yesterday, I read my blog for the first time in about a year.

it was eye-opening.

somewhere in my brain at some point there was preliminary understanding to the answers of questions that still shadow my mind.

at some point, I was smarter than I am.

that's something to aspire to beating.

I'm not sure what will be happening with blog usage now, whether it will be regular, or sporadic, or what kind of topics will be on it, in what style of writing. But it should get some posts.

to start;

happy christmas, and a blessed new year!

pei

truly is the land of the emerald, the sapphire and the ruby.

sometimes the quiestest sound is whispering the thing you need to know the most.

The news of the day is a figment of our technological imagination.