i may, or may not, redo my room.

i'll probably delete my facebook before the month is out.
i'll check and make sure i deleted myspace while i'm at it.
i'll delete my other blogs, and likely leave this one to gather virtual dust.

msn will get used, and gmail will keep pace.

other than that, I may, or may not, redo my online connection usage.

call it what you like, but RC has left the building.

logic is a bummer sometimes

Its been exactly 2 months since I last wrote. Sometimes I feel as though when I'm writing on my blog I have to say the thing that everyone will like. The thing that everyone with read, which they don't, and like, and comment positively. When you write something that you want other people to like, its mainly not what you believe. And you're likely not very passionate about it. I was thinking about this the other day, and if you're passionate about something you can still be convincing despite the fact that some people may not like what you're saying. Its like Matthew, an ex-tax collector, the ultimate public sinner. The sort of person you would think once out of the job would go hide himself in a hole and feel sorry for his lack of friends. But no, somehow when Jesus comes along and pulls him out of his job and says follow me, he goes, and definately doesn't hang around in some boring old hole. His life becomes a quest to loving others and passionate preaching, telling of the turning point of his life and bringing the truth message to the hurting. That sort of transformation simply isn't logically doable. Its like God is saying to me that despite the fact transformation and passionate belief isn't 'possible', He can do everything. Change me from being the logic addict into a child like believer of His love. Sometimes I wish I wasn't pumped with 'God knowledge' from day one. Don't get me wrong, I love living in a Christian home, having grown up in a love cocoon, but sometimes I think that starting out in an entirely hopeless situation would have me more willing to jump at the logically impossible. Wanting to fall in love with Jesus, a want that's distracting. It makes me feel cliche and hypocritical to talk about faith and God's unimaginable love for me, this way, but I know its the truth, why can't I drop the knowledge from my head to my heart? It keeps getting stuck in my throat with the words that I try to choke back.